twothousandten.
new years.
went to Boathouse with Daniel and a few other new found franns.
we visited my parents at Amy Boyds house where I did the hustle with paul bergmann and had my first margarita of the night..and floored my famil friends son who hasnt seen me since i was like 14, running around playing pranks on him..ha.
we all went back to daniels house.. where i drank 2 more margaritas and 3 glasses of motion potion and 2 glasses of champagne..
i remember midnight.. till about 1.. then its a little fuzzy..ramsey was puking from a triple shot of vodka..rookie..i was laying in the floor watching southpark.
daniel and i stayed in bed till like 1 because we didnt go to sleep till 6.. it was great.
just wanted to document it…im having trouble remembering as is :)
up and down
mood swings much? been having rapid amazing to sucky mood swings in the last few days. like one minute im like chill and down to earth, the next im crying myself to sleep till 6:00 am for, unbeknownst to me at the time, absolutely no reason. hm, im female, love it? i think so.
Christmas EVE! I just helped wrap 2 of my own Christmas presents..i put the bows on them and wrote the gift tag. thats a new one..
im not sure what im going to do for new years.. it is possible that i will go back to jackson, drink away the memories from Christmas Break, or that i will stay here and continue to dig myself an emotional hole.. it depends upon the plans of the one who is helping me dig this emotional hole…after all, it takes 2 right?
ive spent the day with my mom, and found out some interesting history about my family.. until today i thought that my family was one of picture perfect quality. I had heard the family drama horror stories about my friends and accquaintences families, and always wondered how my family slipped under the dramatic radar.. Come to realize they didnt.. cool. this should be an interesting Christmas..i get to look around at everyone..and i know the secrets :)
Swagger.
haha! well the first step to acquiring said swagger is admitting that you don have it, so thats a step in the right direction.. lol step two..dont hate on sugarland or rascal flatts..step three, give subway a second chance„ step 4..exterior christmas lights :) this is a 12 step process to recovery lol
i solemnly swear that i am up to no good.
so ive been listening to Stacy Clark alot lately. I’ve had alot of different things happen in my life recently and her album Apples and Oranges pretty much sums up everything that i feel right now. i think she has a song for every thought ive ever had.
went down town today, had lunch with my best friends. now im home looking forward to dinner with my family, then movie night with the best friends. pretty sure were gonna watch harry potter.. what better way to spend a tuesday night?
so lately ive been feeling more down to earth. im single for the first time in about 5 years.. and im thoroughly enjoying myself. im learning things about myself -for example, i actually dont mind being alone sometimes.. its forcing me to come out of my shell without the help of someone else, and also that its okay to sometimes keep to myself..which i find to be much more comfortable. i find myself wanting to be out in nature, relaxing, thinking, praying, writing.. anything to keep me occupied.
id like to go camping soon, its been a while. While i have all this free single alicia time, id also like to learn how to make hemp jewelry.. i think itd be cheaper for me in the long run.
ive decided not to go back to jackson for new years.. i see those people all the time every day, and being with the people i love at home happens few and far between.
six years. thats a long time to wait for something..and then you find that the wait was more then worth it, and timing is still a bitch. :) and the funny thing is, the whole time i waited, it was sub consciously. it wasnt an everyday thing i dwelled upon, but a simple “what if” in the back of my mind.. one of many i assure you.. this what if is seemingly accurate at the moment. ill let you know in 2 weeks.
